Hello all my lovers out there!  It's 1:28 in the morning and I just realized that it is now officially Christmas Eve... how weird is that?  Don't even ask me why I'm awake at 1:28 in the morning, because I have no idea.  Usually I'm in bed by like 11, when I'm able, but tonight for some reason, I'm just not tired.  So I decided to blog.  I haven't blogged in so long, and as some of you probably noticed, I acutally took the link out of my info for a while.  I just figured that I really didn't have any time to write anymore, so what was the point of keeping it in there.  Then I was thinking about making this my private blog instead of a blog that anyone could read so I could get some stuff out that's been on my mind, but then I realized I would have no motivation to write at all if I knew no one was going to be reading it, so I threw that idea out as well.  And now here I am again, at 1:30 in the morning on Christmas Eve, and I just decided to post an entry.  Who knows if I'll actually get back to this again like I was during the summer, religiously writing in this thing.  Or if it'll just end up being another random blog entry and I won't write again for another month.  I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
   So, what has been going on in the life of miller you ask?  Well, I'll tell you.  It's now Christmas Break and so far, it's not been all that great.  I mean, I guess if I had the choice of either being in school or staying home all day, I'd definitely choose staying home because I'm absolutley LOVING the extra sleep, but I guess you could say I've just been kinda... bored.  Other than this past weekend, I really havent done much.  Let's see... well on Friday I did this Santa/Elf thing with Mandi and Alexis.  Its this thing they do every year in Apple Orchard where parents pay money for "Santa" to come visit their house for like 20 minutes on a scheduled night and "Santa" and his "Elves" talk to the kids, sing carols with them, and sometimes give them presents and eat cookies.  Well the theatre company participates in this every year and on Friday night, Alexis was Santa and Mandi and I were elves.  And let me tell ya... I really didn't wanna do it at first.  Like I was really nervous that I was gonna screw something up or something and ruin Christmas for these kids. (Cuz most of them really do believe that we're the real thing) Well it turned out to be so much fun.  Mandi, Alexis, and I had a blast and most of the kids were really cute and were really fun.  All except this one family who didn't really seem to care much and even asked us why Santa was a girl.. that was interesting.  (However Alexis, you did do a really awesome job as Santa I must say.  Good job girl!)  Other than that one family, everything else went great.  After we were done, the three of us went back to Mandi's house and ordered pizza cuz we were starving.  We ended up staying at Mandi's for a while and just talking around the table and it was really nice because I don't get to have cool conversations with Alexis and Mandi all the time and it was fun.  I really do love those girls. 
   Well after a pretty fun night on Friday, I woke up early on Saturday to start to get ready for Winter Formal which was on Saturday night.  I told my mom to wake me up at 10 because I had to shower and everything before my hair appt.  at 1230.  However, I ended up waking up at like 830 for some reason and couldn't fall back asleep.  So I hung around the house and then went to my appt. at Studio 8 around 1130 so I could have time to look at some pictures of how I wanted my hair done.  Well she ended up taking me back early, and it's a good thing she did that too, because my hair took 2 HOURS to do.  It was crazy.  But it was amazing.  I LOVED it.  I had it halfup/halfdown and super curly with silver clips on little twisty things in the front and it was so cool.  I think thats the only thing I really loved about that night was my hair.  Don't get me wrong, I had a really good time and I'm really glad I went and everything, but it definitely didn't top the last two years.  I don't know if it was because I didn't have a date and just went with a group, or because I wasn't in the right mood... I dunno.  Oh well, its not a big deal.  My group met at Rania's for pictures and then went to Mandi's and then went to Bennigans for dinner.  Then we went to the dance where I spent the whole night going back and forth between my two groups of friends, which wasn't too bad, I think I balanced my time pretty well.  Afterwards I was supposed to have a bunch of theatre girls sleep at my house but only Katie B, Rania, Amber, and Mihok ended up coming.  Thats ok though, we still had fun.  Katie, Mihok, and I stayed up til literally 4 am and played Mall Madness and Trivial Pursuit with DVDS and made smores.  It was great.  I love my theatre girls!
   So that was my Winter Formal night '04.  Overall, not too bad, but not AMAZING either.  Oh well, it happens.  So anyway on Sunday I just stayed home and slept all day and then went to the Theatre Christmas Party at Melissa's house.  That was pretty great.  I really love just hanging out with a bunch of theatre kids.  Conclusion: Sometimes, all you need are warm fires, good movies, and great friends to make you feel better.  More people than expected showed up and I was real glad.  I absolutely LOVE theatre kids.  They make me smile.  And I was super excited to see people like Shane show up because I rarely ever get to see him anymore and I love him to death and I miss him.  That turned out to be a pretty great night.
   So that was my weekend.  I feel like I just got done telling a weekend story in TV class... that was weird.  Anyway, other than that, my break has been pretty boring.  Tony brought over Lord of the Rings on Monday and I watched that, which turned out to be pretty good except I thought the ending was terrible.  Tuesday I went to the mall with Mihok and Anthony and then went to Mihoks and played pool.  Wednesday it snowed really hard, but I managed to mail Alison's Christmas present to Australia and then finish my Christmas shopping.  And Thursday, today, Tony was supposed to bring over the second Lord of the Rings but he didn't and I was kinda dissapointed but I had a night out with half my theatre girls (cuz the other half were snowed in and couldn't come) and we did our secret santa.  Oh yea, and before I forget, I also went to Ryan Lynch's dad's funeral tonight.  I feel so bad for him and his family.  His dad just died of cancer 3 days before Christmas.  I really like that kid, he's really nice and I could tell he was really happy we came.  Please pray for him, he really needs it.  Anyway, after the funeral showing we went to Katies house and everyone exchanged a gag/crappy present and a nice present.  I ended up getting both of Melissa's presents which were a light-up ring for my gag present and a bunch of little lotions from Victoria's Secret for my nice present.  It was so much fun.  Then we ate chili dip and played Clue FX (a new version of Clue which I highly recommend... tons of fun) and it was a great night.  I needed it.  Thanks girls.. I love ya!
   Wow, so I just realized it's not 2 08 am and I'm still not very tired.. what's wrong with me?  I also just realized that this entry has been super long and that's kind of exciting.  I really didn't expect it to get this long.  Let me just think of some last minute updates to share and then I promise I'll stop and try to sleep for tonight.  Hmmm... well Mike and I finally casted our show for the One Acts.  (Well, for the most part... we still don't have one major part casted, which kind of upsets me.. but oh well)  And I'm so extremely happy with my cast, we pretty much got everyone we wanted for the most part and I think we're going to have a lot of fun.  Oh yea, and I don't know if I mentioned anything but Lauren Forthofer ended up trying out for the one acts.  I was sooo excited because I had no idea she had any interest in theatre.  She ended up with a pretty decent sized role in our cast and I'm really excited to get to know her better.  Especially since she's one of the only ones who I really don't talk too much in my TV class and I think this will definitely help me to get to know her better.  I'm excited.  So, our first rehearsal is the day we come back from break and I'm kinda nervous.  I've never directed a one act before and I hope everything goes ok.  I'm sure it will though, Mike and I will have fun together and my cast is amazing so I'm sure it will be ok.  It always is.  Well... let's see... what else is going on in my life at the moment... Oh yea, I got my Christmas present from Alison the other day.  I was soo excited.  I got a really awesome heart bracelet and some really cool underwear.  And it's all even cooler cuz it's from Australia.  I love Alison to bits and I miss her so much.  I really wish she could have come home for Christmas.  I wish she was home to take me to zoolights again like she did last year.  P.S.- If anyone wants to go to zoolights with me sometime soon let me know because I would looove to go!  Thanks.  Soo... other than that I think that's pretty much it for my life at the moment.  Other than my never-ending boy troubles but we're not going to get into that right now.  Maybe some other time.  Let's just  say I'm really jealous cuz a lot of my friends have really cute boys that do really cute stuff for them and I always get stuck with the stubborn/confusing/kings of mixed signals.  It's not fair, I wish I could catch a good one for once.  :/  I need more wish-granting stars....
   Anyway, that's it.  I finally finished this entry after it deleting itself 2 times.  ...stupid computer... Well, if I don't talk to you soon, I wish all of you a very Merry Christmas and happy new year.  Hopefully I'll be back soon though.  We'll see.  I love you all very much and thank you for everything you've given me this year.  You all truly do make my life worth living.  Lots of love.  Comment please.
  
...there's nothing like being held sometimes...

Conclusion: Everything happens for a reason. Isn't that the truth? That something I can honestly say I've believed in ever since I was little. I remember when my Grandma first gave me this little piece of advice... I was about 9 and trying out for my first softball team. The way the league worked... was everyone "tried out" for all the coaches and then they picked who they wanted. Well I REALLY wanted to get picked by Mr. Januzzi because all my friends were already on his team and I knew him really well cuz I was friends with Becca. Well, my grandma was babysitting me the night that some other lady called me and said I was on her team and I was really upset. I did not wanna play for this lady I didn't even know. Well my grandma told me that everything happens for a reason and little did I know then, but I turned out to be a really awesome pitcher... an opportunity I probably wouldn't have gotten playing for Mr. Januzzi. I also met Katie Osko, who turned out to be one of my best friends in the entire world. So of course... everything DID happen for a reason. Anyway... after that little incident when I was only 9 years old I've always believed that everything happens for a reason, and it's something that I now live by. And let me tell ya... it's helped me through so much. Not only does it help you when you fail your driver's test or when you don't get asked to the dance by someone you like, but it's kinda cool to look back and realize why all these little things in your life happen. I recently realized that I met someone who's in my life at the moment, through an event that maybe wasn't the best thing in my life. And, holy crap, I am so thankful. It's kind of a weird coincidence... very freaky actually... but everything REALLY does happen for a reason. (If you know what I'm talking about... good for you. If not, then don't ask) So yea... think about it next time something doesn't exactly go your way... it helps. Just a little piece of advice for the day. So yea... it's December 3 and I'm at school right now trying to keep Mihok from reading this over my shoulder... lol. I love you Mihok!!! Well, I know that I haven't exactly updated this thing in a while... and I'm sorry. I've been so busy I really haven't even been able to breathe. It's been crazy. I don't know how updated you guys were when I left you.... so I'll start with Rumors. As you probably know, I was props crewhead and it was a lot more work than I anticipated, as things ususally are. Mihok was my assistant and we worked so hard. P.S.- thanks to everyone else that worked on our crew... you guys are awesome. Anyway.. the play was really bad during hell week, but it came together really well. I am so proud of all my actors... especially Steve. He did such an awesome job with the monologue and everything, hunny I'm so proud of you! It really was great. I think its funny how during the process of a show I hate it so much... but when it's time to be over, I never want it to end. Right now I'm going through theatre withdrawal cuz we haven't had anything for like 2 weeks and it makes me sad. However, I just got done with my interview for directing for the one acts and I got a spot! I was so excited. Me and Mike Giele are going to direct a one act together, we're not exactly positive which one yet though. But I think that everyone that has the chance should audition for one acts because they're tons of fun and maybe you could be in my show!! Auditions start next week and I'm really excited to get started up with theatre again. I dont know what Im gonna do if the levy doesn't pass in May and there's a chance theatre will get eliminated. I'd die. But I'm just not gonna think about it. So enough about theatre, which is my love. School is going pretty good. I'm really starting to get sick of some stuff though. Like choir, I really REALLY don't like it. I'm really don't like anyone in my choir with the exception of like 5 people, and I think most of them are really obnoxious. I'm sorry if that offends anyone, but I really can't stand it. Another thing I really don't like- lunch. I hope next year, if I decide to quit choir, that I can have a class 3rd period with lunch D and take a class at the college so I can not have to eat at school. I just hate the lunch room, and I hate the food. I just don't like lunch. Oh yea, on my last report card I got 2 As and 2 Bs. Which I thought was pretty decent. Well my parents didn't think so and told me I have to raise my Bs in order to keep on doing everythiing I'm involved in. I think that's crap because I'm trying the best that I can and I think Bs are good and whatever. So anyway I went in to ask my social studies teacher why I had a B and she said that I had a 92.9%!!! And she wouldn't raise it... I was so mad. I mean, c'mon, a 93% is an A and she couldn't raise it a tenth of a percentage point!! So I argued it for like 2 days and then just gave up cuz she wouldn't give in. Oh well. Well... now that I'm done ranting and raving about school... I'll move on to a happier note. I LOVE my friends. Like seriously, they're what get me through the day. So I would just like to thank every single one of you for always being there for me. I love you guys to death and I would do anything in the world for any of you. Thanks! So I think this is the end of my first entry in a long time.... aren't you proud of me?!?! haha. I'm gonna go... I have TV class in like 5 minutes. Love ya. Leave a comment if you feel the same ;) Random Confession: I watch RAW (professional wrestling) every Monday night with Tony, Mihok, and Mike and I LOVE it!! We're so cool!

   Ya know, I just sat here for about 5 minutes thinking about how exactly I wanted to start this blog entry, because there's so much I wanna say, but I just don't know where to start.  Conclusion: Sometimes you just have to jump right into things.  So here it goes- this past weekend was amazing.  And it's kinda funny that it was amazing because it's not even like it was jam-packed full with tons of stuff, because it wasn't.  It was acutally very relaxing.  However, in the words of Jake Waccholz, "This weekend was effin' awesome.  Jealous?"
   It started on Friday, obviously, because that's when most weekends start.  (P.S. I love that now whenever I tell anyone about my weekend I tell it like a weekend story in TV class... I love that class.) So Friday, I got picked up to go to the football game because my back tire was flat and my Dad wouldn't let me drive it in the rain.  Don't ask me why I went to the football game in the freezing cold when it was raining outside, I really don't know.  But it was fun.  Conclusion: I love football games. So we went and hung around until it was so freezing that I couldn't feel my fingers and left in the middle of halftime.  After the game, or should I say in the middle of the game, Tony, Mihok, and I drove to Blue Sky to get a table because we had like 17 people meeting us there after the game.  So then Jake, Rania, Justin, and Gary met us there and we sat down at this huge table and ordered food.  Then Jordan Murray, Mandi, and Sara came and pretty soon we were joined by Sac, John Melick, Ian, and Betsy.  (I'm sorry if I forgot you, there really was a big group)  But it was so awesome because it was basically all the "Joseph" kids reunited and it felt just like summer.  I miss summer so much. I seriously don't think I've ever missed it this much before.  I mean, there's always that little feeling of nostalgia that lasts until like the middle of September, but October is almost over and I still miss it like crazy.  I love my friends.  All 918457018457 of them!! Just kidding.  Anyway, so all of us were at Blue Sky when Jake's phone rang and it was Amber saying that her car had died in the library parking lot and she needed someone to come and pick her up.  So Tony and Mandi went and picked up her and and Joy and brought them back to Blue Sky.  By the time we left, we must have been there for at least 4 hours. It was great though. Mitch asked me today in TV why we are so obsessed with Blue Sky and we go there every weekend, and I really didn't have an answer besides the fact that we have nothing better to do. I mean, if you think about it, we really don't.  None of us want to be home,  because... who does??  And it's not like we can all go clubbing... so we go to Blue Sky.  It's cool... the whole staff knows us and they love us.  
   So that was my Friday, cuz after I got home I just went to bed cuz I was exhausted. It had been a very long week.   Oh yea, I almost forgot. I felt really bad because Leila called me as I was leaving Blue Sky and she really needed to talk to  me and since I was leaving I told her I'd call her back in like 2 seconds.  Well, definitely got too caught up in the moment I guess and totally forgot to call her back til like 1 am.  I'm sorry Leila.. I love ya!  Anyway, I slept in til like 10:30, which is pretty early for me, on Saturday and then woke up and layed around the house until Mihok called and we decided to go up to Cedar Point for Halloweekends.  So me, Mihok, Mandi, Jake, John Melick, and Justin drove up there around 2 and stayed until around 8:30 when the girls left because Mihok had to babysit at 930.  It was soo much fun.  I haven't had that much fun at Cedar Point in a long time, it was great.  The group I was with is amazing and even though it was freezing cold all day and raining, it was awesome.  We didn't ride very many rides, Disaster Transport, Calypso, Iron Dragon, and Mean Streak, and we went in two haunted houses, and saw two shows.  I swear Jake is like some kind of heat box or something because he kept us warm the whole time.  He's a pretty cool kid... it's hard to believe that I couldn't stand him in the beginning of the summer.  What was I thinking??  So I ended up becoming completely broke, I mean I literally have NO money, I came home and got invited to go to Jake's and watch a movie, but I didn't cuz I was WAY tired.  So I just went to bed and slept til noon on Sunday.  My mom was kinda mad cuz I didn't go to church, but I really was tired.  And it's not like I can sleep in real late this weekend cuz I have the pancake breakfast on Saturday morning which I still need to find a costume for... any ideas?? 
   Sunday was really a "blah" day.  All I did was lay around all day.  I had so much to do too, and really I had all day to do it, but I barely got anything accomplished. It was nice though.  And of course right when I sat down to actually DO my homework, Tony called and asked if I could help him study.  I told him I couldn't because I had so much to do, but it did no good because I just ended up talking to him on the phone forever anyway.  So it was actually 9 o'clock when I just started to read Moby Dick.  It sucked.  Oh yea.. and P.S.- TONY AND I ARE NOT DATING.  Just thought I'd throw that one in there since still no one believes us.  I finished my homwork around 1 and went to bed exhausted.  Again.
   So as you can see, my weekend wasn't ALL THAT exciting. But still amazing.  I just love spending time with good friends.  It makes life worth living.  Today in school was ok.  Typical Monday, consisting of notes in Social Studies and English, spicy chicken strips at lunch, getting yelled at in choir, and weekend stories in TV.  It was a pretty good day though.  I thought I was gonna have tons to do tonight, but it turns out I really don't.  Which is good, I could definitely use the extra sleep.  Well I'm now officially proud of myself for taking the time to write out a second blog entry in 3 days.  How cool is that?!?!  I know you all are proud of me.. if you are then I would appreciate a comment or 2.  Then at least I know I'm not typing this all out for no reason.  Thanks guys. I love you and I'll write soon.  Have a good one.

Random Confession- I was voted Most Trustworthy at St. Joe's in 8th Grade.

   Hello again.  It feels good to be back writing again.  I realize I haven't written in a while, over like a month and a half now, and I'm extremely sorry to my blog fan club.  I've just been so busy lately with school, and theatre, and friends, and everything else I have going on in my life right now, it's been crazy.  I'm exhausted.  I really am, I mean, sometimes I'll come home from something that I really wanna write about, but I'm so tired that I just crash.  Oh well, it happens.  Now don't get me wrong, things are going pretty well in my life right now.  Nothing majorly wrong, nothing that isn't potentially fixable at least.  Sure I've been busy, but I think I'm one of those people that isn't TRULY happy unless I'm totally stressed out with no downtime whatsoever.  I love being busy.  I love having places to go and people to see, I feel accomplished I think.  It's cool.  Life's pretty cool.  Conclusion: I'm really lucky to have the friends I have, because without them, I would probably be on some kind of anti-depressent right now.  Seriously, if it weren't for these awesome people that I spend all of my time with, I'd be lost.  Thanks guys, much love.
   So anyway, back to my life that you've been missing out on... haha.  School's going ok.  Right now my schedule's kinda difficult.  Social Studies is pretty cool.  It's super easy and Sherry's alright I suppose.  I really didn't like her at all at first, I thought she was a pretty lousy teacher, but now I kinda like her.  I've found I'm like that with a lot of people.  Conclusion: I need to work on not judging people right away.  But yea, the class is easy except she gives us lots of projects.  I despise projects.  I usually do pretty well on them though, cuz I'm a pretty creative person, but I'm also really lazy and don't have the time or effort.  Right now we're working on a project for the election where she made up a whole campaign and Terry Traster from our class is going to be pretending he's Kerry and Brad Aiken from second period is pretending he's Bush and they're going to have a debate in front of both classes and go around and give speeches to lots of other social studies classes.  Then Sherry split the rest of the class up into groups like "campaign managers" and "media" and "reporters" and stuff and I'm in the media with Amber, Eileen, and Stephanie.  We have to make a news show and report stuff on the speeches and debates which is cool cuz Mr. Lowrie is gonna help us and we're gonna use the Steele News Live set and everything.  I'm excited, it should be fun.  As long as it doesn't get too stressful.  We also have to write a paper about the media's role in the election which really sucks because right now I'm working on some kind of paper in every one of my classes.  I just have so much going on.
   In English, Mrs. Moluse is awesome.  I love the lady to bits, however I really don't care for her class.  Maybe it's just the kids in my class, but I really can't stand it.  It's so boring.  She just stands up there and talks at us and it's horrible.  I'm not doing all that well in that class either which my mom isn't very happy about because I took AP English last year and got a B and now I'm pulling like a C in Advanced English this year, which is a step lower.  I guess I could be putting more effort in, but like I keep saying, I'm so tired, I just don't have the energy.  We're working on writing a research paper which is due in a couple weeks and she gave us topics to choose from.  I think I'm going to write on abortion just because I really don't understand any of the other topics she gave us.  On a side note- I was really mad yesterday because the night before I was supposed to read this story for English but layed down to read it and fell asleep.  But I figured that it wasn't a big deal because we usually just go over it in class.  Well, just my luck I get to class and she gives us this project to do were we have to map out the story piece by piece in drawings and of course I didn't read it so I have no clue what I'm doing.  Figures.  That's kinda how English has been for me.  However I did do really well on the independent reading assignment.  I read the Da Vinci Code (really good book... I totally recommend it!) and I got a 101/100 on the paper which is the best I've done on anything in that class.  I don't think I'd ever even gotten a perfect on a vocab test or anything.  I'm just doing really bad.  Hopefully the independent reading will bring my grade up though. 
   Then there's choir, which is the same as usual.  I'm in Women's Chorus for the second year in a row which really sucks because I know I'm better than most of those girls, I just don't like singing in front of people so I didn't get into Concert because I just don't stand out.  Conclusion: Work on standing out of the crowd.  I really don't care for choir much this year, so I think if I don't make Concert next year, I'm just gonna quit and maybe get early release or something.  After choir I have TV which is turning out to be a really awesome class.  I'm renewing a lot of old friendships I've had with people like Monica, Jill, Lindsay, Jenny, John, and Alison, and making new firends with a lot of the other kids.  Tim cracks me up, and so does Mitch and Shields.  I really love that class.  I'm so glad I decided to take it.  To any sophomores- I totally recommend trying out for it.  It's definitely well worth it and I can introduce you to Lowrie so you can get to know him and stuff- I'll give you the hook ups ;)  So anyway- TV's great.  This week we did absolutely nothing, just kind of sat around and talked all week cuz the senior class was working on the election show all week.  It was great- good times, good times.  I did my first speech on Theatre last week and it turned out really good.  I got a 57/ 60 on it cuz my video clip was a little too long.  But that was pretty good for my first speech.  Now I already have a second speech to do that's due next week Friday.  It's another informative speech so I need a topic.  I was thinking about doing Carly Patterson- the Olympic gold medalist gymnast- since I saw her perform and got her autograph when I went with Tony to the Tour of Champions at Gund Arena last Thursday.  If you think that's a good idea or have any other good ideas- lemme know.  I could use the help.  Speaking of Tony, he now has the nickname of "Weekend Story" because he's in all of my weekend stories every Monday in TV class.  We tell them every Monday.  Now my whole class thinks we're dating, along with like all my other friends plus my parents because I spend so much time with him.  However, let me say, I'M NOT DATING TONY... I SWEAR!  That's all I have to say about that.
   So besides everything that's going on with school, I have theatre every night.  It's going pretty well, espcially since golf is over (thank god) and I don't have to worry about 2 activities after school.  I'm crewheading props for the show, and we really haven't gotten much yet, which isn't good considering the show is in like 4 weeks.  But Mihok and I are working on it.  We had our first crew meeting on Thursday and I sent out like 40 letters and only had like 10 people show up.  Oh well, I really don't need THAT big of a crew anyway.  The show is "Rumors" and it's hilarious and everyone should come and see it.  I'll let you know when it is, I don't feel like looking it up right now. 
   Now you probably have a pretty good idea of how busy my life has been lately.  It's been crazy, but I love it.  I wouldn't change a thing.  I've been going to the football games every Friday night, we're still undefeated... and I really hope we beat Avon Lake cuz we haven't beaten them for like 37 years or something.  I've also been hanging out with friends a lot, especially my "Joseph" friends.  However, I would like to say that I miss my golf girls terribly and I feel really bad cuz I haven't hung out with them in a long time.  I was supposed to go to Becky's house tonight before the game but I fell asleep when I got home from school.  I got to see Katie Osko tonight, which was exciting.  (In case you didn't know, Katie Osko is one of my best friends who moved to Nevada after 8th grade.)  I've been seeing lots of people that went away lately.  I saw Dana today too, that was exciting because I didn't expect to see her at all.  Ashley came home last weekend, Ian was home, I saw Melick, and Cerny.  I love my college friends and I miss them so much.  And of course I'm still missing Alison like crazy.  I got an email from her the other day and I saw her family at one of the football games.  I really need to go visit them soon, I miss them and I've been informed that they miss me as well.  Alright, well after a long night of standing in the rain at the football game and spending like 4 hours at Blue Sky, I'm really tired and it's time to go to bed.  I think I might be going to Cedar Point tomorrow with Jake, Mandi, and Mihok.  I hope we go, that should be fun.  I'm going to sleep, I'm so excited to sleep in tomorrow.. I haven't done that in forever.  As always- I wish everyone the sweetest of dreams.  Comment please.

   I think it's really funny how everytime someone fills out one of those really long surveys they title it "really bored"  or "bored out of my mind".  Like it's some kind of excuse to fill one out, or it makes it ok or cool, because your bored and have nothing better to do.  Well, I'm not going to title this one "bored" because I'm really not bored.  I actually have tons to do, but am procrastinating doing it, and I came across this survey in Kaylin's blog and felt like filling it out.  I could be writing my TV speech that's due on Wednesday, or finishing the Da Vinci Code, or writing an ACTUAL blog entry since I haven't done that for like 2 weeks now... but I'm not.  I'm going to sit here for probably 45 minutes filling out this survey, just cuz I feel like it.  No one will probably sit here and read the entire thing, because it is incredibly long, but oh well.  I really just felt like doing it, so here ya go...

   Wow, can you believe it... it's only been 3 days since my last entry and I'm blogging again!  I'm so proud of myself.  Anyway, the past couple of days have actually been pretty boring.  Nothing exciting at all.  Hopefully life won't stay this boring... I need some excitement!  haha
   Tuesday I went back to school after a long weekend, and lemme tell ya, I did NOT wanna go back.  I just get so depressed in the mornings when I have to wake up early.  Especially early in the week like on Mondays or Tuesdays.  I hate that, I really hate waking up depressed.  So yea, I woke up on Tuesday and went to school.  I was kinda mad cuz I had an away golf match that afternoon, where I was gonna get out of school at 2:40 so I wanted to park by the Gym so I could grab my stuff and catch the bus.  But that didn't happen, I got there too late, so I ended up just parking by the baseball fields, oh well.  It's amazing though, because almost every day since school's started, I've gotten to school only like 5 minutes before the final bell, however I always make it on time *knock on wood*.  Conclusion: I need to give myself more time in the morning, meaning I need to actually get out of bed when my alarm goes off.  Do you ever wake up in the morning to the sound of your alarm going off but can't for the life of you think of what that beeping sound is??  I do that all the time.  I wake up really confused cuz I can't figure it out, and then I realize that it's my alarm and then get out of bed to shut it off.  I hate that.  haha, I'm a dork.  So anyway, now that I've had my little A.D.D. moment... back to Tuesday.  Sherry wasn't there first period and we had Mr. Wilson.  He's this adorable little old man who doesn't know anything about social studies but it doesn't matter cuz he's so darn cute!  He explained this absolutely pointless project Sherry was having us do which was basically just copying a chart from our book onto a poster board.  I swear that class keeps getting more and more pointless every day.  I think it's my official least favorite class.  I mean, Ms. Sherry's a nice lady and everything, but she's not very strong in the teaching aspect.  So, instead of Amber and I working on our project like we should have been doing, we talked the whole time like we usually do and accomplished nothing... oh well... it happens.  English was boring as usual, still reading the Crucible.  It's an ok story, just the people in my class that read a lot are boring and monotone and that doesn't help the whole "lack of sleep" problem I tend to have 2nd period.  Lunch was good, as usual.  As Mihok and I were aiding in Val's room after lunch, Kyle was explaining to us how he needed to find someone to crewhead lights for "Rumors" because he's the only one who semi- knows what he's doing and he REALLY wants to assistant direct.  I felt really bad for him, and I told him I would do it if he really couldn't find anyone else, even though I really wanna crewhead props.  Lights wouldn't be too bad, I've always kinda wanted to learn how to do them.  The only problem is I wouldn't be able to do like anything else for the show and I wouldn't be able to be backstage.  But I'd be in the booth with Donie... that's always fun.  haha.  I dunno, I probably won't end up doing it, but I would like to do lights at least once before I graduate, maybe senior year.  Choir was alright, I really wish I was in Concert Choir.  I'm contemplating dropping choir next year and taking some extra classes if I don't get in next year, I haven't decided yet though.  I'm just hoping I make it.  Guliana sits next to me, and I have to say I'm very happy that she does.  I always thought she was kind of a brat, but I didn't really know her.  (just first impressions)  But it turns out that she's super nice and really funny, and I feel really bad that I ever thought bad about her.  Our songs are kind of stupid, but they always are.  TV was great.  We basically just did weekend stories all period, and I had a great one to tell.  Everyone liked the spa idea.  I felt cool... lol.  We finally got our textbooks and had some real reading homework.  It's alright though, it was bound to happen sometime.  I left TV early for our golf match and went to drive my car around to the gym.  We left for the game at Perkins (Thunderbird South)  and I played the 4th spot in the JV match.  Not exactly where I'd like to be, I'd like to be at least 6th on Varsity... hopefully sometime before the end of the season.  However, I got to play we Leila and two girls from Perkins.  I beat Leila and one of the other girls.  I played AWESOME.  I was so proud of myself.  I parred two holes and would have had a 51 if it weren't for the stupid last hole that I screwed up on.  I even had this awesome shot that went right in the hole for a par from like 150 yards away.  It was sweet.  I was so excited.  So overally Tuesday was a pretty good day, not bad. 
   Wednesday was picture day and me being the stupid geek I am about pictures I definitely woke up at 4:45 am so I could be at Leila's house at 5:30 am so she could do my hair.  I was so tired... I'm still recooperating from that one.  My hair turned out really sweet, it was all curly and stuff.  Then it started raining.  I was so mad.  It kinda ruined the front part of it, but oh well, I hope it didn't ruin the picture.  Leila's hair looked really sweet too, I straightened it for her.  We have the same hair, I swear it.  I wore my new plaid skirt and red shirt from AE that Catey and Leila picked out.  I looked pretty good I think.  I was gonna wear my stillettos.. but decided I was wearing a short skirt and it didn't look quite right, so I stuck with the infamous black flip-flops.  I finally got to school after what seemed like the longest morning ever, and went to first period.  Sherry was back, so we corrected our tests from the week before.  I actually didn't do too bad on it at all.  At least not nearly as bad as I thought I would.  What can I say... I can B.S. my way through any essay test as long as I semi- know the basic idea of what I'm writing about.  Amber and I worked on our projects which let's just say we're the biggest over-achievers ever.  If you've seen the posterboard you know what I mean.  We made it into like a stage with curtains and everything, it was sweet.  Then we went to get our pictures taken, and I think mine went ok.  You can never really tell, ya know?  2nd period was once again a boring day of the crucible, however we did get our independent reading lists.  I can't decided which book I wanna read though.  I mean, I dunno if I have enough time to read a big long book before October 1.  Especially with theatre starting next week, I'm gonna be super busy.  I hope I don't get so run down that I get sick :/  I think I'm either gonna read "Da Vinci Code" or "The Poisonwood Bible".  They both have bits of extra credit and that's alway good... considering how bad I did on my first two tests.  Well, when I got to lunch I was freezing cuz it's always cold in the cafetorium, so Steve gave me one of his sweatshirts to wear.  Thanks Steve.  Then I picked up my yearbook.  I like them, I suppose.  I think I liked last year's better.  I spent all of my aiding time with Val looking at my yearbook.  I felt kinda bad, like I was supposed to be helping, but I really wanted to look through it.  I think she understood.  Choir was the same as usual.  TV was good.  We went over his syllabus for the class and he told us some really funny stories. Conclusion: I love Mr. Lowrie... he's officially the most awesome teacher ever.  Any underclassmen reading this... TAKE TV!! It's a sweet class.  I think I'm really starting to warm up to it.  He assigned our first graded speech to us, but it's not due for another 2 weeks, maybe more depending on his lesson plans, so I'm not worried yet.  It has to be an informative speech and I have no clue what I want to talk about.  Any ideas??  After school I was supposed to have another golf match, but it was raining really hard so it got cancelled.  I was so happy.  I needed a nap.  So I took Mihok and Becky home and then came home and just kind of hung around.  I went over Amber's for like an hour to finish our Sherry project, then I came home, talked online, and slept.  It was a great night.
   Today was Thursday and I don't think I have ever been THIS tired.  I'm exhausted.  However, it's now 11:07 pm and I still have a current event article to do and I have to study for a vocab test tomorrow, but instead I'm blogging. I knew this would happen once school started... oh well.  I'm almost done.  I woke up late this morning, but still managed to look half-way decent.  I got to school just as the second bell was ringing, and still made it to class on time.  First period was once again completely pointless.  We copied notes from the overhead for like 30 minutes then just sat around and talked for the last 45 minutes.  I swear that is the most pointless class I've ever taken.  In english I almost fell asleep while reading the Crucible.  Lunch always wakes me up though, cuz it's always so incredibly cold in the cafetorium.  After lunch I went to visit Becky in the office for a little bit and then typed up a test for Val.  Choir was the same as usual, again.  We had an alto sectional today and I realized that this year's altos really stink.  Last year we really rocked, and I'm really dissapointd in us.  I wish I was section leader.  I should have tried for it.  In TV, Mr. Lowrie had another lecture day and it was kinda boring.  Oh well, tomorrow should be fun, we're just watching movies all day cuz Mr. Lowrie has a meeting during 4th period.  Oh yea, during the last 5 minutes of class, Mr. Lowrie took us on a 5 minute "field trip" to his front room where he keeps all his pictures of his past classes and their awards and stuff.  He told us all about everything and all about how we're gonna be up there someday and it was kinda cool.  I can't wait til that day.  So, I was praying for rain all day, and it definitely didn't rain so I had to go to golf practice today.  I got to golf with Catey, so that was cool.  I love her.  Z went with us, so we had to play almost every hole and we were the last group done.  Oh well.  Then we sat around and talked in the clubhouse for a half hour til our Parent/ Player meeting at 7.  I love my golf girls... they're all so funny.  Then we had our pointless meeting and I came home.  When I got home I made Mac n' Cheese and watched "Joey" and "The Apprentice".  I really should have been doing my homework so I could get to bed early, but I didn't.  It happens.  I'm a procrastinator.  So now it's 11:17 and I really need to get my stuff done so I can go to bed.  It's weird cuz I don't have any plans tomorrow after school.  I don't know if I'm going to the football game or not, we'll see.  Ok, I'm leaving now.  I love you all... sweet dreams.  Comment please.

Random Confession: The longest crush I've had on a guy lasted for 2 years.

   Conclusion: I hate first days of school.  They are never ever good.  Whether it be the first day of a new semester, or the first day of school of the new year... I hate them.  I think most of it has to do with the fact that I don't handle change very well.  I don't think I'll ever handle change very well... it's just something I'll have to work on I suppose.  However I think the only way to work on it is to go through it a lot, which I'm sure I will throughout my life, but I'm not looking forward too it.  Anyway, like most other first days of school in my life, this one sucked as well.  Everything was just a major dissapointment.  Given, I didn't want summer to end at all, this had to be the best summer of my entire life, but I was a little excited about everything starting up again.  And I was let down, yet again.  At least this year I woke up at the right time.  (Last year I overslept and woke up like 15 minutes before I had to leave... it was bad)  I woke up this year around 6:15 and got ready and everything and I thought I looked pretty nice but then I go to leave and my mom tells my that my jeans are too tight and low.  I give her "the look" and leave.  So before I even left the house I was already in a bad mood.  I picked up Mihok and got to school just in time to get the last parking space in the cafetorium parking lot.  Better than parking in the church I guess.  So we go to homeroom with Mr. Mconhie to assign lockers and stuff and he assigns me one in the main hallway, which would have been perfect, but it was already taken.  So he assigns me one of the ones that was left, which was all the way at the end of the TV hallway and it had no handle.  He said that's all that was left.  So I have no locker.  That sucks, especially since we're not allowed to carry bookbags to class or coats or anything.  So I end up having to share with Amber and Mihok, 3 people to one locker- a little cramped.  After the locker situation was taken care of, I went to first period Adv. Social Studies with Sherry.  I hate that class.  Sherry doesn't teach at all, and we have a lot of class debates that are worth some random percentage of our grade and I can't debate.  I really don't like voicing opinions to people I'm not familiar with.  Plus my class doesn't talk at all, except Terry, so that will make it real interesting.  Plus I heard from some seniors that her tests are impossible and with me taking a tech program.. I need an A in this class to graduate with honors.  After Sherry, I go to Moluse for Adv. English 11, second period.  That class wasn't too bad, I have lots of friends in it with me.  And Moluse is an amazing teacher who happens to love theatre and theatre kids so it shouldn't be too bad.  I just have to keep up with the reading.  I have Amber, Mihok, Candace, Amanda, Terry, Kayla, and Alison Marty in that class, so it should be fun.  Except Mrs. Moluse kept calling me Stephanie. That was kind of dissapointing cuz I thought she'd know me, but I'm sure she'll get it sooner or later.   After Moluse came another dissapointment.  Lunch.  Amber, Mandi, Mihok and I tried to keep the theatre kid table going from last year, without all the graduated seniors, but it didn't really work.  So it ended up being just the 4 of us, and Amy with these other 3 girls that I don't really know.  Real dissapointing.  After lunch was study hall, and then choir which was not nearly the same as last years Women's Chorus.  I miss my seniors like crazy :( 
Then finally came TV.  Sure, I was a little nervous, but for the most part I had been excited for this all summer.  Mr. Lowrie talked the whole classtime about how he wants us to become close and stuff.  But I honestly, at the time, couldn't see that ever happening.  These are kids that I had never associated myself with before, and I'm not sure they're that excited about associating themselves with me.  I dunno, real nervewracking.  I hope I didn't make a mistake by taking this class.  We'll be together for 3 periods for 2 years, that's a LOT of time.  I hope they like me.  Then Mr. Lowrie tells us we have to give this little 20 second speech in front the camera already on Friday, and then we have to give our first two minute speech in front of the class on Tuesday.  I was soo nervous.  Our 2 minute speech had to be on something important to us in our lives, and I wasn't sure I was ready to open myself up like that to these people that I barely knew.  So overall, I was scared.   Then to top it all off, after school I had to go and play golf and I had to of played the worst game ever.  I was so upset that, I'll admit it, I cried when I got home.  I cried so much, that I couldn't even stay at the house, so I left to go pick up some school supplies I was gonna need.  When I came home my mom was all mad at me cuz I wouldn't tell her what was wrong.  Honestly, I just didn't want to talk about it.  Usually, when I'm that upset I just want to be left alone.  I finally ended up talking to her late at night and then went to bed.  I hate first days of school. 
   However, second days of school, are usually a lot better.  And this one was.  I woke up thinking, "Nothing could possible be as bad as yesterday, so todays gonna be a good day."  I even ate a popsicle before I left, because you know popsicles always put me in a good mood.  Everything turned out better.  We went to the library in Sherry's class, so Amber and I just sat there and talked about our TV speeches.  Moluse was just like the day before, not too bad.  Lunch was also better, Kaylin and Steve joined the table and Becky sat at the table right behind me.  Choir still kinda sucked, but it happens.  TV actually turned out pretty good.  We all gave our little speeches and I was the very last person to go.  Really nervewracking, but it turned out ok.  Then we played the toilet paper game where however many pieces you took you had to tell that many things about yourself.  I took like 6 so I didn't have to talk for too long.  I found out some stuff about people I would have never guessed and I felt a lot better about them. Maybe it will work out for the best after all, I mean, everything happens for a reason, right?  After school I drove Amber, Kaylin, Guiliana, and Becky home and then went to Becky's house.  We ate pizza and these really gross chili fries and then Leila came over and we went to the Ak vs. Amherst football game at AK.  It was fun.  Afterwards I came home and was actually gonna blog that night, but just didn't feel like it.  Which is now resulting in yet another super long entry, sorry guys.
   Saturday was the day of the Annual Theatre Co. Picnic and Pool Party and this year it was at my house.  So I woke up kind of early so I could help my mom clean the house and stuff to get ready for everyone to come at 6.  It was such a nice day all day, until around 5 when the council came to help set up and it started to thunderstorm.  Mike Giele came first, and he was the only one here for like 10 minutes.  It was kinda cool though cuz I never really get to talk to Mike one on one so it was cool.  He's a cool kid.  Then the rest of the council came and people started showing up around 6:15.  It was really raining, and thunderstorming but Sara, Mihok, Jordan, Donie, and I played outside in the rain anyway and it was fun.  My mom wasn't too happy about that, especially since Sara has mono, but it was a blast.  Unfortunatly the thunderstorm resulted in a lot of people not showing up, which was dissapointing, but a lot of freshman came and they're basically the main reason for the picnic so that was good.  The rain stopped around 7:30 and a lot of people swam and there was tons of food.  Everyone left around 9:30 or 10 except Amber, Rania, Mandi, Mihok, Lex, and Melissa stayed and we swam at night.  It was cool.  Finally around midnight, Rania, Mandi, Mihok and I went to Lex's house and stayed the night there for her birthday.  We tried to watch the Bourne Supremecy but we fell asleep.  It was overall a pretty good Saturday. 
   I left pretty early on Sunday to come home and shower and stuff before going to Canton to see the Lost & Found concert with Sara.  It was amazing.  Lost & Found is a Lutheran group consisting of 2 guys playing the guitar and keyboard.  Sara and I danced in the front row and we were definitely the cool kids of the concert.  Lost & Found really inspired me, and I was really glad I went.  Thanks a lot for taking me Sara, I love you girl!  On the way home from the concert, Sara and I read the prologue to "Acceptable Risk" for English class and did our questions together.  I was glad we did cuz otherwise I probably wouldn't have understood it.  Then I went to bed.  Short Sunday, but awesome.  Last weekend was good.  It reminded me a lot of summer... I really miss summer.
   Well, to save time and space, this whole week was just kind of boring.  Nothing super exciting happened, and nothing really depressing.  Just a boring week of school.  It felt like it lasted forever though.  Like the longest week of my life!  Wednesday was Mihok's birthday... so happy birthday Megs!! Other than that, nothing out of the ordinary.  Schools going ok I suppose.  I gave my speech about Gertie on Wednesday.  I thought it was a really good speech, the TV kids were a tough crowd though.  They didn't really laugh out loud at anything, I think they just didn't really get it.  They're not theatre kids... it's ok.  Hopefully future speeches will go better for me.  I was super glad when it was over though, I was so nervous for it.  Oh yea, and on Thursday we had our first TV day.  We actually all had jobs and produced the news just like the senior class did in the morning.  It was awesome.  I love being in the control room the most.  I like all that technical stuff.  My favorite job was probably the technical director.  It was awesome.  I loved it.  I can't wait til senior year when we actually get to do the news for the school.  Exciting stuff... lemme tell ya.  Then on Friday we watched the "Year in Review" DVD in TV for the class of 2004.  It was so awesome.  I hope our class gets as close as that class did.  So that was pretty much my week.  Amber and I did lots of studying, especially learning the Preamble to the Constitution (through School House Rock of course!) and I'm really glad she's in all my classes.  It makes it a lot easier to get through the day.
   Another reason why I basically just skipped this whole week was because I couldn't wait to get to this weekend.  This weekend was amazing.  I'm gonna have great stories to tell in TV on Tuesday!  It all started on Friday after school I took Mihok and Kaylin home and then Becky, Birdie and I drove out to the mall to buy Catey her birthday present.  (We also bought elmo cookies which was exciting cuz I love elmo cookies!)  After walking around the mall for an hour waiting for Leila and Sam to meet us there, we finally decided to buy Catey stuff to treat her like a queen.  So we bought her a white boa, gloves, a tiara, bracelets, a wand, and then a jewelry box and a picture frame.  It was cute.  After the mall we all went back to Becky's to get ready for the football game and eat her mom's homemade pizza.  The pizza was so amazing... her mom's so cute.  I met Becky's friend Kristen (for like the third time... lol) and she seemed pretty cool.  We all got ready and then went to the game.   The game was fun.  I don't remember whether we won or lost because I really didn't pay much attention to the actual game.  Except maybe some of the players... haha ;)  *Right, my sexy mexican matt?!?!*  Anyway, there were tons of people I knew there... and a lot of college kids came back for it, so that was exciting.  Tony came halfway through the game... so he could get in free... and I hung out with him a lot.  I felt really bad though cuz I came with Becky and Leila and ended up leaving with Tony and Mihok and Rania.  I hope they didn't mind :/  Well we went to Rania's house for a bonfire with Alexis, Jake, Amber, Mandi, and Cerny!! I was so happy Cerny came... I love that kid... and I miss him so much.  The bonfire was fun... even though I spent half of it in my car at Taco Bell with Jake and Alexis.  It was quite a fun ride though, Jake's hilarious, I can't believe I used to not like the kid at all, and now we're pretty good friends.  He's cool.  After our half hour Taco Bell run we went back to Rania's and I had to leave cuz my stupid curfew is at 12.  :(  It was a great night... I have the best friends.
   Saturday was the best day ever.  It was the day of Catey's birthday party.  I woke up around 10:30 and showered and packed and stuff then left for Catey's house.  Once I got to Catey's, Leila, Catey, Sam, Becky, and I loaded up in Lei's car and drove to Headquarters for our Spa day.  It was wonderful.  We all got manicures, facials, and our makeup done.  We looked so hott when we were done!  The facial was the most amazing part.  I got to put on the spa shoes and the cool white bathrobe and lay down on the big comfy bed while she massaged my face and shoulders for a half hour.  It was amazing!!  I love Catey!! After the spa we went back to Catey's house and got dressed up and went to Presti's for dinner.  The food was really good.... we ordered so much of it though but it was great.  They brought out a cake for Catey and everything... it was really nice.  Then we went back to Catey's for the night and watched "The Prince and Me" and "Butterfly Effect".  I tried to teach them how to play MOW but it didn't work too well... lol.. and we stayed up talking for ever.  We ate a whole bunch of food at like 1 am and then everyone fell asleep except me and Leila so we just kind of hung around until 3:30 when we dozed off.  What a great night.. and day.  I love my golf girls.  I wish they would all do theatre so I could see them more often when golf ends.  Thanks for a great Saturday ladies... I love you to death.
   Sunday morning I left Catey's around 11:30 and came home and showered and stuff.  Then I went to pick up Sara around 2 and we drove out to her church in Vermillion to help paint their new trailer.  It was fun.  We spent about 2 hours there... and Sara and I just painted boards outside and talked and talked for the whole time.  It was great.  I love talking to Sara.  I don't get to do that very often anymore, cuz she's not in any of my classe and theatre hasn't started yet, so I miss her.  Then we went inside her church and she gave me a tour and we sat in the church and talked for a while.  It was cool.  Her church is so tiny and cute.  She seems like she really gets a lot of out the services too.  I wish I got as much out of church as she does.  I really don't like St. Joe's.  Maybe some day I'll switch.  I dunno.  Anyway, we eventually left after the intern pastor told us he needed to lock up and I drove her home.  I came home for like 15 minutes then went back to pick Sara up so she could stay the night at my house.  We stopped at Drug Mart and Sara bought some stuff (including popsicles!!! haha)  and then we came home and ordered pizza.  After picking it up, Amber and Mihok came over too and we watched the Trading Spaces marathon thing.  Mihok left her cell phone at Panera so since Amber got her licence last weekend, we all got in Amber's car and drove to Panera to pick it up.  We then decided to go "Backwards Trick-or-Treating" and went to some of our friends' houses to give them popsicles. It was great.  We got some strange reactions... and some really good ones.  It was fun.  We went to Ryan's house, the Melick's, the Marty's, Val's, Pat's, and David's.  I loved it.  If someone randomly showed up at my house with a popsicle I know I would be excited... but that's just me.  We came back to my house and watched the Extreme Makeover show and then put in "Big Fish".  Amber, Mihok, Sara, and my mom said it was really good, but I wouldn't know because I fell asleep within like 10 minutes.  I was exhausted from the night before, sorry girls.  Amber and Mihok left around 12:30 and Sara and I came upstairs and went to bed.  Sara should sleep over more often when we're both not exhausted, I love Sara and spending time with her. 
   So this morning (Monday morning) we woke up at 8 so I could drive Sara to cross country practice then I came home and slept til 12.  Then I got up and went downstairs to watch Blue Crush, cuz I just found out that we have this new "On Demand" cable thing where we get all these new movies for free and it's super awesome.  I mean, it's not even like those crappy movies that no one's over heard of... they're good movies.  I haven't actually changed out of my pajamas all day, I've just been a bum, either eating, talking on the phone, or typing up this long blog all day.  It was a nice relaxing day.  Tony invited me over his house for a bonfire tonight, but I don't think I'm gonna go.  I really just need to go to bed early... I have school tomorrow :(  I really don't wanna go.  I really don't enjoy it.  I miss summer so much.  Speaking of missing things... I got another email from Alison the other day.  That was exciting.  I sat with her mom and sister for a little bit at the football game and she thanked me for that cuz they miss me.  I miss them too, they're like my second family.  Alison's sister wants to join theatre, and that would be super exciting.  I hope she does.  If I can't have Alison there, at least I'll have one Kernohan there with me.  I miss Alison.  I really hope I get to go to Australia to visit her next summer.  I know I say this a lot, but you have no idea how much the girl means to me.  I miss her more than anything, maybe even more than my summer... however it's a close one.. lol.  Alright, I think this is long enough.  This could of ended up being a really long entry considering I really haven't blogged since before the first day of school, and I've already been in 7 days of school, but I don't think it was too bad.  Definitley not as long as my last entry.  Hopefully I can be better about it.  I'll try... no promises though.  I love you all and wish you sweet dreams.  Comment please.

Random confession- I love thunderstorms... especially at night.

   So I was reading this random girl's blog today, cuz I was super bored waiting for Rania to call, and she was talking about how she has no one to run too.  She said she felt like her life was crazy and depressing and she felt like she had nowhere or no one to run too.  I just thought that was so incredibly sad.  I mean, c'mon, she must feel so alone.  Conclusion: I am the luckiest girl in the world, because I have so many wonderful friends and so many places where I can run when I'm upset.   So I am officially thanking every one of my friends for being there for me.  I know I can be a little crazy, and bi-polar, at times, so thanks for putting up with me.  I love you!
   Now that I've gotten my thank-yous out of the way, I can start this amazingly long (and probably boring *again*) blog entry.  I don't know why I've been so bad at this lately.  Conclusion: I procrastinate too much.  I've really been meaning to blog since last Saturday night, and now it's Tuesday and it's been more than a week.  I do this a lot.  I'll finally write a big long blog and then I won't blog again until the next week.  I need to start to be better about this.  However this is like my 27th entry, which is exciting considering the most I've ever written in a journal is like 3 entries.  I think most of it has to do with your comments... so thanks for those... and keep them coming.  It's nice to know people are interested enough in my life to read about it. 
   Alright, here it goes.... we'll start with Saturday.  (Remember this was a long time ago- and due to my major short term memory loss- I probably won't remember specific details- sorry if I miss stuff.)  However, I do remember waking up upset.  I hate that.  It has to be my least favorite feeling in the world- waking up angry or upset.  Then your whole day is just a mess.  It sucks... lemme tell ya.  I think I was upset cuz of the whole thing that happened the night before, which really isn't even important at all, but because I was having a menstrual moment *as I like to call them when I'm just getting upset over something stupid* I thought it would end up having some big impact on my life or something- it obviously didn't considering I don't really even remember why I was so upset in the first place.  Anyway, I woke up upset and was kind of depressed all day.  So I called Amber, and I ended up going to her house and going to Panera for lunch.  Then we went to church at 5 and decided to go see "Napolean Dynamite" at Cobblestone.  It was the best/stupidest/funniest movie I've ever seen in my entire life.  I definitely would like to own in someday.  It's absolutley a theatre kid movie.  I think theatre kids are the only ones that would truly appreciate it's humor.  It was great... unexplainable.  Afterwards Amber and I decided we were hungry and went to Quaker Steak to get something to eat.  This was kind of weird cuz I'd never really been to QSL without a huge group of people, but it was good.  Expensive, but good.  The DJ was horrible, but oh well, it was livable.  We were gonna go and check out the "Dancing in the Streets" thing downtown, but when we got there it was over and we decided it was probably just a slutty junior high kid thing that was just an excuse for Amherstonians to get together and get drunk.  Oh well, they tried... "A" for effort.
   Now Sunday, I don't have any recollection of at all.  Seriously, it was such a long time ago.  All I know is that Amber and Sara came over Sunday night and we watched the Olympics and talked about books we've read and wanted to read this summer.  Amber wanted to start a book club, which wouldn't be too bad of an idea if I wasn't already involved in 30 gazillion other things during the school year... which officially starts in 2 days I might add.  That's all I remember of Sunday, it must have been fun however, because Sara, Amber, and I always have fun when we're together.  I'm just gonna end Sunday here, especially since the rest of this entry is going to be too long as it is. 
   I definitely remember Monday.  It was the longest day of the summer.  Not just any long day, however, a long day of golf.  I had to wake up at like 6:30 in the morning to shower and stuff cuz I had pictures at 9.  I got to the course and the Jajack guy didn't even show up til 10, so Yunker  *being Yunker* gave us a putting clinic for an hour.  Not like I didn't need it, my putting sucks, but still by the time I actually took my picture I probably looked not so great.  Oh well, it's just golf pictures.  Conclusion: I'm not very photogenic... that's why I like taking funny/stupid pictures... haha I'm a cool kid.  After pictures there was a match at 1 at Port Clinton that I was going too, but Yunker still made us stay and play 3 holes.  That made me kind of upset, I didn't want to play more than I had too.  Yunker makes me wonder sometimes...
So after those pointless 3 holes I went home and ate my turkey sandwich and then left for the school.  We had to be at the school at noon, and the match didn't even start til 2.  I mean, sure, it takes an hour to drive out to Port Clinton by bus, but we were still there an hour early.  So when we got there we had to putt and hit from the driving range for an hour.  So by the time I actually teed off, I had already had 2 putting clinics, hit a bucket on the driving range, and played 3 holes.  I was very sick of golf.  So of course, my score showed it.  I don't remember my exact score, it's that short term memory loss thing again, but that doesn't really matter.  All I remember is getting to play with Becky and Andrea and Z.  I love Z.  He is so great, makes me laugh like no other.  The bus ride home was a long one, I was exhausted.  And very hungry, that turkey sandwich definitely didn't do it for me, and by the time I got home it was 8:00.  But my mom saved me some spaghetti and meatballs for dinner (my absolute favorite!!) and so I was happy.  I was tired so I showered and went to bed.  Monday was a very long day. 
   I liked Tuesday.  Tuesday was a good day.  It was one of those days that if I would have blogged that night, it would have been a very happy blog!  haha.  I got to go to practice on Tuesday morning, and I got to play with Leila and Becky so that was very exciting.  Yunker was at the match in Rocky River, so Z was our coach at practice.  Z being our coach, we really didn't HAVE to play.  I love those golf days.  Actually, I really should start playing for real on those days, maybe I'd get better.  I really want that varsity letter.  Anyway, playing with Becky and Lei is always hilarious.  I came home and showered and had voice lessons at 4.  This was my last lesson, kind of sad, but very exciting at the same time.  I love Ligaya.  I hope to keep in touch with her, she's a really nice person.  After lessons I met my family at Olde Towne for dinner.  Anthony wasn't working though, so that was kind of dissapointing.  When I was done with dinner I went over to Cerny's house with a bunch of theatre kids. That was fun.  It was also really sad though cuz Cerny left on Thursday for college.  Ashley Tommasson, Lizzy, and Dana were there too and they're gone as well, except for Lizzy, she leaves tomorrow.  :(  It was real sad, I'm missing them already.  I really need to send them all some carepackages.  They're poor college kids now, they could use it.  Besides the fact that we were all sad, it was a good time, but of course it always is with my theatre kids.  We played pool, watched Super Troopers, and then the Olympics.  I had a headache towards the end though, but Shane made me feel better.  He's a good kid... I like him.  I also got to see Matt, and that was exciting cuz I haven't seen him in a long time.  I feel bad cuz we were supposed to hang out since like last month, but we've never gotten the chance.  Sorry Matt.  We'll hang out soon, I promise. :D  I said my goodbyes to Cerny and then came home.  Tuesday was a good day, but kind of sad at the same time.  I'm really gonna miss them.
   Alright, now that I've officially been writing bits and pieces of this one entry for like 2 weeks, I am now going to finish.  I'm not leaving this computer until this entry is completed because I know if I keep procrastinating like this I may just forget about this blog and that would be bad.  So here we go, in case your a little lost, I'm on Wednesday the 18th.  So Wednesday I woke up super early cuz we had a tournament at Thunderbird at 9 am.  It was horrible.  Not only did I have to play with this girl that I didn't really care for, but I had to play 18 HOLES with her.  We got a break in the middle to eat and they served hot dogs... which I really don't care for... and on top of all of that, I got sunburned REAL bad.  So I was already in a bad mood when I came home around 4 or 5, when I found out that Joy had had a last theatre party thing that I wasn't invited too.  That kind of upset me and I just wasn't in a good mood at all.  But then I talked stuff over with Rania and Sara and I felt tons better.  I love my friends- thanks guys.  After talking to my friends I went over to Becky's for a while with my golf girls and we always have a blast when we're together so it made my day not so bad.  I swear I will never play 18 holes again!
   Thursday morning I had practice at 8:45 but my prayers were answered *thank God* and it rained really hard so practice ended up being cancelled.  Well since Leila and I were already awake and really didn't wanna go home we decided to drive out to the mall.  I didn't buy anything-cuz I'm a poor kid without a job- but we tried on prom dresses and it was fun.  Much better than golf.  I came home from the mall and called Amber cuz her away message said she was upset.  We talked to a while (she's fine by the way) and decided I would sleep over her house that night so we could get up early the next morning and go school shopping.  So I went to dinner at CiCi's with my parents and then drove over to Amber's.  It was great cuz when I got there Amber was talking to Lizzy on the phone and she decided to come over for the last time before she leaves for college.  So she came over and we sat and talked and ate milky way cookies.  I really miss Lizzy, she was my black-and-white-triangle buddy and she's just an amazing person.  I wish her very good luck in college.. I love you Lizzy!!  After Lizzy left, Amber and I went to sleep cuz we were exhausted by that time.  Thursday was another long day. 
   Friday morning, Amber and I woke up, not as early as we had hoped, but we eventually woke up and drove out to the mall.  We got there and ate Chinese like the fat kids we are *hehe* and then started out to find jeans.  Now I am definitely not what you would call a slow shopper.  No Sauntering!!  So we just kept running in and out of stores to find jeans but we got nothing.  Finally we went to Afterthoughts and I bought some earrings and a toe ring.  At least I got something.  Rania called my cell phone and said to meet her and Mandi out at Kohls so we did and I finally found a pair of jeans, 2 tank tops, and a shirt.  (The jeans I acutally don't care for now and kinda wish I wouldn't have bought but oh well)  Then we realized Amber was gonna be late for work so we rushed home and got her to work on time... thank God cuz her mommy wasn't too happy with me I think cuz we were later than she expected.  So I came home and met my mommy at Bob Evan's for dinner.  Then Rania called again and said we were all gonna sleep at her house that night. So I met Mandi and Rania at Panera and we came to my house and ate pie and these bacon things then picked up Amber and went back to Ranias.  It was a fin night.  We watched this show on VH1 about this porn star and ate leftover panera stuff like we always do.  It was fun.  I love my theatre girls!!
   Saturday morning I woke up super nervous because the one day that I had been dreading all summer was finally here.  My voice recital.  I came home from Rania's around noon and tried to keep myself as busy as possible so I wouldn't get too overly nervous.  I practiced my song like a million times.  Finally 4:00 rolled around and my mom and I left.  (I finally gave in and let my mom come... I really wasn't gonna let her cuz I thought it would make me too nervous.. then she got upset so I told her she could.)  I was the second person to sing.. which was good cuz I got it out of the way... and I thought I did horrible.  My voice was just really shaky and the high notes were a little off pitch.  My mom said I did good though, but she's my mom, so she has to say that.  I was really proud of myself though cuz that was the first time I sang like that in front of people by myself and I did it!  I was so incredibly happy when it was over.  After the recital I went over to Leila's house with a whole bunch of people.  It was fun.  The stars were gorgeous... so I was happy.  Steve and I went to McDonald's to get apple pies and I almost got pulled over by a cop cuz he was behind me with his lights on. I started freaking out, but it turns out he wasn't after me.  Thank you God!  It was funny.  I fell asleep happy that night, so life was good. 
   Sunday, I woke up around 10 and got a call from Leila wanting to know if I wanted to go with her, Becky, and Catey to KMart.  I agreed so we went and Becky and I bought stilettos!!  They're so awesome.  For only $10 too!  I doubt I'll really ever wear them... but they're super cool to own!  I came home and showered and then went to my cousin's house for his birthday.  Boring family stuff, you know.  After that I picked up Amber and we met a bunch of people at Denny's.  I love Denny's... it's the theatre kid hangout.  I think that's why it stays open, besides all the old people that go there for breakfast.. haha.  After Denny's we went over to Mihok's to watch Eurotrip.  I got a call from Steve halfway through the movie to go pick him up at Sam's cuz he didn't have a ride home and a bunch of people were drunk.  So being the awesome friend I am (you owe me big time Steve!) I went to pick him up and drove him home.  Then the most awkward thing happened when I got back to Mihok's.  I opened the basement door and walked down the stairs and I all see is Amber laying the floor with Jake's head in her crotch.  As I walk down more stairs I see Mihok on top of Jake, then Shane on top of Mihok, and Rania on the end.  It was hilarious.  They all give me this scared look cuz they thought I was Mihok's mom, and then went back at it.  It turns out that Jake accidently pulled Amber's pants down... like completely down... and then this whole de-pantsing thing started.  Good times... good times.... Anyway, I was really surprised when Amber and I left because I gave Shane a hug goodbye and then Jake opens his arms up to me like he wanted to hug me.  Now, Jake is NOT a hugger, so I thought he was kidding but it turns out he wasn't and he gave me a real good hug.  I felt loved, however it's funny cuz he's so super tall that my head was like resting on his chest.  He's a good kid, I like him.  Amber then came to my house and we ended up staying up til like 2 am talking about stuff we usually talk about.  It was great.  Sunday seemed forever long... but the good kind of forever long.  The kind you won't forget for a long time. 
    So, I'd like to take this time to congratulate everyone who has made it this far in this entry.  I think this is officially the longest entry I've ever written.  Plus, it took me literally 2 weeks to write... I just kept putting it off... then the days kept building.. and I hate leaving days empty.  I think I'm only gonna write up til Thursday... the first day of school though... cuz I'll start another entry for school.  So where was I?  Oh yes... Monday.  Nothing really happened Monday.  All I remember is that I some kind of golf something during the day and then I went to Sara's house that night.  At Sara's, Amber and I compared schedules with Sara because *oh yea!* it was Open House that evening.  It was really dissapointing cuz I have not one class with Sara.  :(  But spending time at her house is always fun.  We played with each other's hair and talked to cool kids on the internet.  I love Sara and Amber... they mean the world to me.. thanks for everything girls!
   Tuesday morning I had to wake up early to go to my dentist appointment.  I don't like dentists.  I'm sorry, but I really don't.  I'm sure they're all really nice people.. but as dentists.... they stink!  No cavities here though!!  After the dentist I came home and then left for my match at Avon Lake.  We whooped them and came home.  Don't really remember the details, sorry.  When I got home, I had like 5 seconds to change and then left for the drive- in with Rania, Mandi, and Amber to see Princess Diaries 2, and Little Black Book.  We had a blast on our last real night of summer.  Except the fact that we're not smart and didn't know to turn Mandi's key backwards instead of forwards so her battery went dead.  *But her parents don't know that so Shhh!* The nice people at the concession stand charged it for us though... so it was all good.  We were defnintely the talk of the drive-in though, that tends to happen to us a lot though!  haha.  It was fun, we took Mandi's convertible so we were real cool.  I love my girls!  It was an amazing ending to an amazing summer :D  I miss summer already though :(
   Ok, this is my last day, I promise... then I'll post.  People are starting to complain... haha.  Wednesday morning I woke up and decided to finish my school shopping with Leila and Catey.  Catey and I determined we are the same size and are going to borrow each other's clothes all the time now so I am excited cuz she has the most adorable stuff!  I love you Catey!  I bought another pair of jeans, and a picture day outfit.  I really need a job... $100 doesn't get you very far.  Especially when it's coming from your father... haha.  Then we had golf at 3:45 and then I had to go to bed early to get ready for school the next day.  
   This is where I leave you hanging.  I'm just gonna post this cuz it's WAY too long already and if I keep going I'm never going to finish.  So here you go, the entry you've been waiting for... for 2 weeks.  Sorry it's so long.  I'm very proud of you, if you actually took the time to read the whole thing.  If not, don't worry about it.  I'll really try to be better.  I love you all.  Goodnight and please comment.  *kisses*

"The best things in life are worth waiting for"