Entry: i wanna put on this tight skirt- and flirt with a stranger... Sunday, August 29, 2004



   So I was reading this random girl's blog today, cuz I was super bored waiting for Rania to call, and she was talking about how she has no one to run too.  She said she felt like her life was crazy and depressing and she felt like she had nowhere or no one to run too.  I just thought that was so incredibly sad.  I mean, c'mon, she must feel so alone.  Conclusion: I am the luckiest girl in the world, because I have so many wonderful friends and so many places where I can run when I'm upset.   So I am officially thanking every one of my friends for being there for me.  I know I can be a little crazy, and bi-polar, at times, so thanks for putting up with me.  I love you!
   Now that I've gotten my thank-yous out of the way, I can start this amazingly long (and probably boring *again*) blog entry.  I don't know why I've been so bad at this lately.  Conclusion: I procrastinate too much.  I've really been meaning to blog since last Saturday night, and now it's Tuesday and it's been more than a week.  I do this a lot.  I'll finally write a big long blog and then I won't blog again until the next week.  I need to start to be better about this.  However this is like my 27th entry, which is exciting considering the most I've ever written in a journal is like 3 entries.  I think most of it has to do with your comments... so thanks for those... and keep them coming.  It's nice to know people are interested enough in my life to read about it. 
   Alright, here it goes.... we'll start with Saturday.  (Remember this was a long time ago- and due to my major short term memory loss- I probably won't remember specific details- sorry if I miss stuff.)  However, I do remember waking up upset.  I hate that.  It has to be my least favorite feeling in the world- waking up angry or upset.  Then your whole day is just a mess.  It sucks... lemme tell ya.  I think I was upset cuz of the whole thing that happened the night before, which really isn't even important at all, but because I was having a menstrual moment *as I like to call them when I'm just getting upset over something stupid* I thought it would end up having some big impact on my life or something- it obviously didn't considering I don't really even remember why I was so upset in the first place.  Anyway, I woke up upset and was kind of depressed all day.  So I called Amber, and I ended up going to her house and going to Panera for lunch.  Then we went to church at 5 and decided to go see "Napolean Dynamite" at Cobblestone.  It was the best/stupidest/funniest movie I've ever seen in my entire life.  I definitely would like to own in someday.  It's absolutley a theatre kid movie.  I think theatre kids are the only ones that would truly appreciate it's humor.  It was great... unexplainable.  Afterwards Amber and I decided we were hungry and went to Quaker Steak to get something to eat.  This was kind of weird cuz I'd never really been to QSL without a huge group of people, but it was good.  Expensive, but good.  The DJ was horrible, but oh well, it was livable.  We were gonna go and check out the "Dancing in the Streets" thing downtown, but when we got there it was over and we decided it was probably just a slutty junior high kid thing that was just an excuse for Amherstonians to get together and get drunk.  Oh well, they tried... "A" for effort.
   Now Sunday, I don't have any recollection of at all.  Seriously, it was such a long time ago.  All I know is that Amber and Sara came over Sunday night and we watched the Olympics and talked about books we've read and wanted to read this summer.  Amber wanted to start a book club, which wouldn't be too bad of an idea if I wasn't already involved in 30 gazillion other things during the school year... which officially starts in 2 days I might add.  That's all I remember of Sunday, it must have been fun however, because Sara, Amber, and I always have fun when we're together.  I'm just gonna end Sunday here, especially since the rest of this entry is going to be too long as it is. 
   I definitely remember Monday.  It was the longest day of the summer.  Not just any long day, however, a long day of golf.  I had to wake up at like 6:30 in the morning to shower and stuff cuz I had pictures at 9.  I got to the course and the Jajack guy didn't even show up til 10, so Yunker  *being Yunker* gave us a putting clinic for an hour.  Not like I didn't need it, my putting sucks, but still by the time I actually took my picture I probably looked not so great.  Oh well, it's just golf pictures.  Conclusion: I'm not very photogenic... that's why I like taking funny/stupid pictures... haha I'm a cool kid.  After pictures there was a match at 1 at Port Clinton that I was going too, but Yunker still made us stay and play 3 holes.  That made me kind of upset, I didn't want to play more than I had too.  Yunker makes me wonder sometimes...
So after those pointless 3 holes I went home and ate my turkey sandwich and then left for the school.  We had to be at the school at noon, and the match didn't even start til 2.  I mean, sure, it takes an hour to drive out to Port Clinton by bus, but we were still there an hour early.  So when we got there we had to putt and hit from the driving range for an hour.  So by the time I actually teed off, I had already had 2 putting clinics, hit a bucket on the driving range, and played 3 holes.  I was very sick of golf.  So of course, my score showed it.  I don't remember my exact score, it's that short term memory loss thing again, but that doesn't really matter.  All I remember is getting to play with Becky and Andrea and Z.  I love Z.  He is so great, makes me laugh like no other.  The bus ride home was a long one, I was exhausted.  And very hungry, that turkey sandwich definitely didn't do it for me, and by the time I got home it was 8:00.  But my mom saved me some spaghetti and meatballs for dinner (my absolute favorite!!) and so I was happy.  I was tired so I showered and went to bed.  Monday was a very long day. 
   I liked Tuesday.  Tuesday was a good day.  It was one of those days that if I would have blogged that night, it would have been a very happy blog!  haha.  I got to go to practice on Tuesday morning, and I got to play with Leila and Becky so that was very exciting.  Yunker was at the match in Rocky River, so Z was our coach at practice.  Z being our coach, we really didn't HAVE to play.  I love those golf days.  Actually, I really should start playing for real on those days, maybe I'd get better.  I really want that varsity letter.  Anyway, playing with Becky and Lei is always hilarious.  I came home and showered and had voice lessons at 4.  This was my last lesson, kind of sad, but very exciting at the same time.  I love Ligaya.  I hope to keep in touch with her, she's a really nice person.  After lessons I met my family at Olde Towne for dinner.  Anthony wasn't working though, so that was kind of dissapointing.  When I was done with dinner I went over to Cerny's house with a bunch of theatre kids. That was fun.  It was also really sad though cuz Cerny left on Thursday for college.  Ashley Tommasson, Lizzy, and Dana were there too and they're gone as well, except for Lizzy, she leaves tomorrow.  :(  It was real sad, I'm missing them already.  I really need to send them all some carepackages.  They're poor college kids now, they could use it.  Besides the fact that we were all sad, it was a good time, but of course it always is with my theatre kids.  We played pool, watched Super Troopers, and then the Olympics.  I had a headache towards the end though, but Shane made me feel better.  He's a good kid... I like him.  I also got to see Matt, and that was exciting cuz I haven't seen him in a long time.  I feel bad cuz we were supposed to hang out since like last month, but we've never gotten the chance.  Sorry Matt.  We'll hang out soon, I promise. :D  I said my goodbyes to Cerny and then came home.  Tuesday was a good day, but kind of sad at the same time.  I'm really gonna miss them.
   Alright, now that I've officially been writing bits and pieces of this one entry for like 2 weeks, I am now going to finish.  I'm not leaving this computer until this entry is completed because I know if I keep procrastinating like this I may just forget about this blog and that would be bad.  So here we go, in case your a little lost, I'm on Wednesday the 18th.  So Wednesday I woke up super early cuz we had a tournament at Thunderbird at 9 am.  It was horrible.  Not only did I have to play with this girl that I didn't really care for, but I had to play 18 HOLES with her.  We got a break in the middle to eat and they served hot dogs... which I really don't care for... and on top of all of that, I got sunburned REAL bad.  So I was already in a bad mood when I came home around 4 or 5, when I found out that Joy had had a last theatre party thing that I wasn't invited too.  That kind of upset me and I just wasn't in a good mood at all.  But then I talked stuff over with Rania and Sara and I felt tons better.  I love my friends- thanks guys.  After talking to my friends I went over to Becky's for a while with my golf girls and we always have a blast when we're together so it made my day not so bad.  I swear I will never play 18 holes again!
   Thursday morning I had practice at 8:45 but my prayers were answered *thank God* and it rained really hard so practice ended up being cancelled.  Well since Leila and I were already awake and really didn't wanna go home we decided to drive out to the mall.  I didn't buy anything-cuz I'm a poor kid without a job- but we tried on prom dresses and it was fun.  Much better than golf.  I came home from the mall and called Amber cuz her away message said she was upset.  We talked to a while (she's fine by the way) and decided I would sleep over her house that night so we could get up early the next morning and go school shopping.  So I went to dinner at CiCi's with my parents and then drove over to Amber's.  It was great cuz when I got there Amber was talking to Lizzy on the phone and she decided to come over for the last time before she leaves for college.  So she came over and we sat and talked and ate milky way cookies.  I really miss Lizzy, she was my black-and-white-triangle buddy and she's just an amazing person.  I wish her very good luck in college.. I love you Lizzy!!  After Lizzy left, Amber and I went to sleep cuz we were exhausted by that time.  Thursday was another long day. 
   Friday morning, Amber and I woke up, not as early as we had hoped, but we eventually woke up and drove out to the mall.  We got there and ate Chinese like the fat kids we are *hehe* and then started out to find jeans.  Now I am definitely not what you would call a slow shopper.  No Sauntering!!  So we just kept running in and out of stores to find jeans but we got nothing.  Finally we went to Afterthoughts and I bought some earrings and a toe ring.  At least I got something.  Rania called my cell phone and said to meet her and Mandi out at Kohls so we did and I finally found a pair of jeans, 2 tank tops, and a shirt.  (The jeans I acutally don't care for now and kinda wish I wouldn't have bought but oh well)  Then we realized Amber was gonna be late for work so we rushed home and got her to work on time... thank God cuz her mommy wasn't too happy with me I think cuz we were later than she expected.  So I came home and met my mommy at Bob Evan's for dinner.  Then Rania called again and said we were all gonna sleep at her house that night. So I met Mandi and Rania at Panera and we came to my house and ate pie and these bacon things then picked up Amber and went back to Ranias.  It was a fin night.  We watched this show on VH1 about this porn star and ate leftover panera stuff like we always do.  It was fun.  I love my theatre girls!!
   Saturday morning I woke up super nervous because the one day that I had been dreading all summer was finally here.  My voice recital.  I came home from Rania's around noon and tried to keep myself as busy as possible so I wouldn't get too overly nervous.  I practiced my song like a million times.  Finally 4:00 rolled around and my mom and I left.  (I finally gave in and let my mom come... I really wasn't gonna let her cuz I thought it would make me too nervous.. then she got upset so I told her she could.)  I was the second person to sing.. which was good cuz I got it out of the way... and I thought I did horrible.  My voice was just really shaky and the high notes were a little off pitch.  My mom said I did good though, but she's my mom, so she has to say that.  I was really proud of myself though cuz that was the first time I sang like that in front of people by myself and I did it!  I was so incredibly happy when it was over.  After the recital I went over to Leila's house with a whole bunch of people.  It was fun.  The stars were gorgeous... so I was happy.  Steve and I went to McDonald's to get apple pies and I almost got pulled over by a cop cuz he was behind me with his lights on. I started freaking out, but it turns out he wasn't after me.  Thank you God!  It was funny.  I fell asleep happy that night, so life was good. 
   Sunday, I woke up around 10 and got a call from Leila wanting to know if I wanted to go with her, Becky, and Catey to KMart.  I agreed so we went and Becky and I bought stilettos!!  They're so awesome.  For only $10 too!  I doubt I'll really ever wear them... but they're super cool to own!  I came home and showered and then went to my cousin's house for his birthday.  Boring family stuff, you know.  After that I picked up Amber and we met a bunch of people at Denny's.  I love Denny's... it's the theatre kid hangout.  I think that's why it stays open, besides all the old people that go there for breakfast.. haha.  After Denny's we went over to Mihok's to watch Eurotrip.  I got a call from Steve halfway through the movie to go pick him up at Sam's cuz he didn't have a ride home and a bunch of people were drunk.  So being the awesome friend I am (you owe me big time Steve!) I went to pick him up and drove him home.  Then the most awkward thing happened when I got back to Mihok's.  I opened the basement door and walked down the stairs and I all see is Amber laying the floor with Jake's head in her crotch.  As I walk down more stairs I see Mihok on top of Jake, then Shane on top of Mihok, and Rania on the end.  It was hilarious.  They all give me this scared look cuz they thought I was Mihok's mom, and then went back at it.  It turns out that Jake accidently pulled Amber's pants down... like completely down... and then this whole de-pantsing thing started.  Good times... good times.... Anyway, I was really surprised when Amber and I left because I gave Shane a hug goodbye and then Jake opens his arms up to me like he wanted to hug me.  Now, Jake is NOT a hugger, so I thought he was kidding but it turns out he wasn't and he gave me a real good hug.  I felt loved, however it's funny cuz he's so super tall that my head was like resting on his chest.  He's a good kid, I like him.  Amber then came to my house and we ended up staying up til like 2 am talking about stuff we usually talk about.  It was great.  Sunday seemed forever long... but the good kind of forever long.  The kind you won't forget for a long time. 
    So, I'd like to take this time to congratulate everyone who has made it this far in this entry.  I think this is officially the longest entry I've ever written.  Plus, it took me literally 2 weeks to write... I just kept putting it off... then the days kept building.. and I hate leaving days empty.  I think I'm only gonna write up til Thursday... the first day of school though... cuz I'll start another entry for school.  So where was I?  Oh yes... Monday.  Nothing really happened Monday.  All I remember is that I some kind of golf something during the day and then I went to Sara's house that night.  At Sara's, Amber and I compared schedules with Sara because *oh yea!* it was Open House that evening.  It was really dissapointing cuz I have not one class with Sara.  :(  But spending time at her house is always fun.  We played with each other's hair and talked to cool kids on the internet.  I love Sara and Amber... they mean the world to me.. thanks for everything girls!
   Tuesday morning I had to wake up early to go to my dentist appointment.  I don't like dentists.  I'm sorry, but I really don't.  I'm sure they're all really nice people.. but as dentists.... they stink!  No cavities here though!!  After the dentist I came home and then left for my match at Avon Lake.  We whooped them and came home.  Don't really remember the details, sorry.  When I got home, I had like 5 seconds to change and then left for the drive- in with Rania, Mandi, and Amber to see Princess Diaries 2, and Little Black Book.  We had a blast on our last real night of summer.  Except the fact that we're not smart and didn't know to turn Mandi's key backwards instead of forwards so her battery went dead.  *But her parents don't know that so Shhh!* The nice people at the concession stand charged it for us though... so it was all good.  We were defnintely the talk of the drive-in though, that tends to happen to us a lot though!  haha.  It was fun, we took Mandi's convertible so we were real cool.  I love my girls!  It was an amazing ending to an amazing summer :D  I miss summer already though :(
   Ok, this is my last day, I promise... then I'll post.  People are starting to complain... haha.  Wednesday morning I woke up and decided to finish my school shopping with Leila and Catey.  Catey and I determined we are the same size and are going to borrow each other's clothes all the time now so I am excited cuz she has the most adorable stuff!  I love you Catey!  I bought another pair of jeans, and a picture day outfit.  I really need a job... $100 doesn't get you very far.  Especially when it's coming from your father... haha.  Then we had golf at 3:45 and then I had to go to bed early to get ready for school the next day.  
   This is where I leave you hanging.  I'm just gonna post this cuz it's WAY too long already and if I keep going I'm never going to finish.  So here you go, the entry you've been waiting for... for 2 weeks.  Sorry it's so long.  I'm very proud of you, if you actually took the time to read the whole thing.  If not, don't worry about it.  I'll really try to be better.  I love you all.  Goodnight and please comment.  *kisses*

"The best things in life are worth waiting for"
   

   1 comments

sara
August 30, 2004   05:22 PM PDT
 
Thank you for posting miller!!! I am very proud of you :D haha. It was a lovely entry! we're going to have to continue to hang out during the school year, cause we have lots of good times!! BTW: Thanks for ccoming with me to the Lost & Found concert & being my friend! Love ya!

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